My heart is scarred like a thousand battles. Emotion fills me up and wants to burst but there is no way for it to get out. I want to die but I cannot yet, for I may not know the results of this conversation for months. Corey would understand, but he doesn't care. Stephen cares but not enough to let me talk about it. And Shadow would not understand at all, even if he were here with me. I see nothing, I hear nothing when I walk. I have been feeling all kinds of emotions that is not mine recently as well, and Corey says it isn't him. He could be lying, or he could be saying it isn't him just because he hasn't specifically sent it to me for comfort. I know he was feeling that badly, although I don't know if he felt that badly yet on the day I got the one really bad contact. I KNOW the heart attacks are him. But the rest... the heart attacks are Corey, and the one really bad day, was somebody. The rest... is coming from the outside, but I don't even know for sure sometimes if it's me or someone else. That's not a psychic failing it's an emotional failing. Everything has failed.

...This was poetic when I first thought of it in my head while I was walking. That's why I posted on dA.